Sunday, August 17, 2008

treasure seeking

lovebombers
photo by tracey
i want to speak of the magic of meeting up with 12 women for a retreat on the coast of oregon last week. i went a bundle of nerves. doubting whether or not i should have said "yes". who are these people? how am i to fit in? who am i to be included with this powerful group of extremely talented and beautiful women who are (with lots of crossover) mamas, writers, cooks, photographers, professors, lawyers and artists. i let go of comparison. i let go of feeling small. i let go of who i thought i "should" be to be accepted. i came away returned back to myself. my 8 year old self. the last day we were there i took a little walk to the tide pools. i climbed up on the edge of the coast barefoot along the barnacles and peered into a starfish and sang to a sea urchin. i thought of how much love i have for this crazy wild world and how i am just where i need to be. i returned to myself and also discovered a loving pirate seeking treasures and trusting in the happy ending.

me
photo taken by hula

thank you for that.

xxxxxxxxx
mati rose

18 comments:

tracey clark said...

meeeee tooooo, meeee toooo! I have never had so much fun being my 10 year old self...not even when I was 10 years old!
you are the treasure seeker and the treasure matie! how happy i am to know you.
xo

kelly rae said...

oh mati, you are so special to me. you have no idea :)

you so belonged. SO belonged.

Chookooloonks said...

Ahoy, Mati!

So, SO lovely meeting you this past week. You truly are the treasure seeker -- and the treasure MAKER. My daughter cannot get enough of her beautiful sparkly mermaid seashells.

Thanks for sharing yourself. I can't wait to see you again.

K.

Joanna said...

What a great post. My eyes actually started to well up! How great that you got to have that experience. Good for you. You can see the joy in everyones face as well.

(Stopped by from Tracey's BSM)

jen lemen said...

from one pirate to another, we found so much treasure *in you*. xo

Lu said...

Isn't it lovely being an 8 year old pirate? You find so much treasure when you go seeking what is truly you.

Monica said...

Mati-o - I miss you, and love reading your revealing blog. Can we play together - I have a little time this week and next to be a kid before life hits hard - Love, Moncia

shash said...

looks like a whole lotta beautiful ladies. :-) you fit right in. :-)

andrea said...

oh miss mati rose! miss mati rose! treasure seeker extraordinaire. I must sound like a broken record but I don't care. I adore you. so honored that you like the photo. so happy to see it pop up on the screen. you are beautiful.

I miss you!

xoxo

Jesse said...

That is such a great picture of you, you look so cute, curious and calm!

And I won't even get started on the freckles. Love them!

i'm amy lowrey said...

it looks amazing! love the pics and the freckles!

Tiffany said...

Just fabulous!

Brené said...

whenever I got nervous or overwhelmed in oregon, I looked for you. your smile always says, "it's gonna be alright." i'm so glad I know you.

jenifer74 said...

sounds amazing mati.

Leililaloo said...

This sounds so amzing, i would so loved to be with all of you real,great,fantastic & honest women. What an inspiration it must've been. It's an inspiration to me just reading about it. I hope you don't mind me blogging a little about you and your 'LoveBomb' retreat.

Kim Carney said...

Mati! that sounds like so much fun. Ran around and read the group's take on the event ;) I told Liz to give you a huge hug from me.
Kim

Katrina said...

i LOVE that ttv photo of you. the colors are electric!

Melissa de la Fuente said...

Oh Mati.....this is just so lovely(as are you)and my eyes welled up at this sweet and touching sentiment. How special....
xo
Melissa