Friday, September 26, 2008

a mixed salad

photo of me by the amazing thea coughlin
photo of me by the incredible thea coughlin
i was going to bed last night talking with my husband about how many contradicting emotions i was feeling... my art career is exploding, i gave notice at my 2 day a week job, we're going to Italy for the month of november (OMG!) after our class... and yet there are some scared, nervous feelings cropping up too. and sad feelings for a couple of dear friends who are going through hard times. i am half elated and half like my heart is breaking. and maybe that is good because i can be supportive and uplifting energy to help these friends through it.

anyway, hugh said, "you're just a mixed salad" and it made me laugh because it seemed out of no where but exactly right.

as i'm writing this there is a camera crew outside my door for a photo shoot of me and a couple studio mates. crazy. i'm so, so glad i learned some tricks from thea and boho about modeling before....more on that soon!

so on this friday i am grateful for press, amazing photographers, loving my friends and all of you.

OH i almost forgot the winner of this print is.......ROWENA! Send me your address lady~ matimcd(at)hotmail(dot)com
Rowena said...

"My dream right now is kind of a big one and really fits with your post about Squam. I want to buy land and start a kind of art camp, teaching workshops and hosting retreats and creating an artistic community...."

Hell Yes!

xxxxx
mrm

15 comments:

kelly rae said...

yes, yes. go over and read karen walrond's post today. you guys are aligned!
and i totally get the mixed salad. it's seems these dreams of yours are taking off and off you go with them, into all the bliss and uncertainty and perfectness.
you so deserve it and i'm so happy for you. yay!!!!
and thank god for boho and thea teaching us how it's done!!

Liz said...

I so know that feeling: awesomely wonderful good things happening for you, while people you love are struggling through, it sometimes makes it hard to be totally happy, totally thrilled with your own good fortune... and then the scared and nervous feelings come a long for a little ambush, yikes... sometimes our psyche/our soul/our body is just all a jumble with feelings/thoughts... I go for LONG walks, it makes me breathe, doesn't allow me to hold my breath, and after a walk my body feels a bit lighter, like I've left a trail of my worries and troubles AND good stuff behind for the trees to breathe and expel back out, all clean and purified... Mixed Salad is a beautiful metaphor!

i'm amy lowrey said...

hugh is awesome for coming up with that...he so nailed it!! this is a great pic of you...cheers to all of the well deserved success and your friends are all lucky to have a wise friend to help them along in the process!

amy said...

what a gorgeous photo and lovely words. i'm sure that the spirit that shines through your eyes will do good things for your friends.

jenifer74 said...

we need to grab us some mixed salad at the market in the morning and catch up - you in? me a text/buzz :) xxx.

liz elayne lamoreux said...

love this post...love reading your honesty as you walk this walk of being an artist...love reading your gratitude...

and the mixed salad metaphor is wonderful!

sending you peace and hugs as you walk on this part of your incredible journey.

Caryn Lynn said...

Embrace those emotions! It sounds thrilling, how lucky are you to have those experiences happening. It's the stuff dreams are made of and you and living your dream. You are amazing and the photo radiates that!

justagirl said...

an amazing photo...

congrats to Rowena, lucky girl.

and horray to the roller coaster of life we're all travelling on... with all the ups and downs, it sound like you're really living it with a smile on your face.

Rowena said...

Wow Mati, I am SOO lucky.

Thank you. Not only did I win your giveaway (thankyouthankyou) but I also was asked for my first commissioned painting last night. Right after I heard that I had won!

Did you send me the mojo?

I am very happy that your art is exploding and you could lose the day job. I hope to be where you are some day, and everything I have been nurturing for the past 25 years is starting to sprout. (My explosion is much smaller than yours, but something is happening!)

lisa s said...

i think a complicated life is better than a boring one....

so glad for all the goodness and hope all goes well for your friends.

you deserve all the goodstuff - so try and enjoy it!

sMacThoughts said...

I know that tossed salad feeling well. Sometimes, I suppose, it's hard to feel justified when good things start coming your way especially when others you care about don't have the same. It's ok; you're normal. All the best!

Lu said...

mixed salad...I like that.

Flo said...

you blog is beautiful, as are your elephants and all your work.
nice to visit.

Amy said...

Wow! You look simply GORGEOUS in that photo!

This was an amazing post- honest, insightful and REAL. I am honored to have read it.

Katrina said...

congrats to you! i think sometimes the "mixed salad" is just about being really present and aware of where you are on your path. perhaps it means you're aligned? and i think hugh said it perfectly: mixed salad! congrats on your success...