Saturday, July 16, 2005

eraser

i came here specifically to erase my last 2 posts about my fears & financial woes. after reading your supportive comments i feel less alone and calm in my vulnerbility. thank you. i think to deal with ones own stuff you have to work through it. own it. face it in the eyes and expose the scariest place. my head hurts today from hashing it out, but it's all part of the process and progress. i trust this. no more fear. i feel stronger.

furthermore i know that i am a smart girl. i have a lot of resources if i seek them. i just need to educate myself in a non-judgemental way about finances. i wasn't born with this knowledge and i have a steep learning curve. oh yes. i also want to take myself more seriously as an illustrator, and think of myself as a small business, nurturing the business side as much as the creative side. i'm excited to figure this out. my head still hurts though!

3 comments:

shash said...

good for you! glad you didn't erase your posts! i am trying to commit myself more to my small biz, maybe try to make it a little bigger...just opened a biz bank acct. today finally.

Meredith said...

I'm also glad that you didn't erase them.

Maybe we should start a creative business/finance study group. I think that a lot of people are in the same boat. ( I know that I am!) It would be nice to see what we can learn and then share it as a community resource.

laurel said...

i found pigtails and her creation really inspiring - it made looking at my own lurking issues seem more feasible. i admired the way you tackled it with your own style and determination and found a creative way to make it your own - i can't imagine that you not doing the same (along with hugh) with your wedding and your marriage