Tuesday, November 29, 2005
(self-p tues) i wish i...
...looked all fancy, but really i am paint splattered and ratty sweatered.
...was coordinated, but really i spill things all the time.
(including red wine all over heaps of hugh's nice expensive computer paper last night.)
... was 10 lbs thinner, but really my jeans keep getting tighter.
...had nice eyebrows, but they are sparse.
...didn't get bad pms, but really i feel like screaming at the smallest thing.
...was wealthy, but really i'm broke.
...lived closer to my family, but really i am across the country.
...didn't feel affected by the rain, but really it makes me want to curl up.
i wish i was perfect, and i know i am not. i want to accept these imperfections.
i like the idea of wabi-sabi (and it is the theme of my upcoming birthday celebration):
"Wabi-sabi is a beauty of things imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete.
It is the beauty of things modest and humble.
It is the beauty of things unconventional".