i love visiting blogs to gain perspective.
art school is driving me a bit batty. too many critiques. too much inspiration. too much attitude. too much insecurity. too much bad art. too much amazing art. too much talent. too much immaturity. too much articulateness. too much theory. too much weirdness. too much, i say! and only 2 weeks to go!
somehow visiting blogs (while some make me feel a tad underproductive), most are so earnest and beautiful and made from the heart without all of the above, well some of the above~inspiration included.
really i am lucky to be where i am at in school, but it is a blessing and a curse to be so aware of what's happening. it can become paralyzing of creating for the love of creating, if you let it.
i guess i just wanted to get this off of my chest before i go into my studio and carry these feelings.
i spoke with a fellow student the other day who had been in one of my first classes i took at CCA and she was talking about how when we were in that class together she started making these drawings of all graphite and then white on white and has gotten increasingly minimal, to the point where she is doing nothing now and has no ideas.
i said that maybe she just needed to empty out her basket and then start putting the pieces back in gradually. she seemed in such despair about her work and boxed in. i hope she can find a place to get some distance and start creating again after she graduates this spring.
people deal differently in an environment so intensely creative and charged. i know for myself i need lots of time... by myself and to explore without feedback. i for one cannot wait for the summer! i may not be posting much these next couple weeks due to my workload, but will surely be checking in with others:)
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hey sweet mati
i love how you share and are so aware. funny how it can all feel like such an OVERLOAD of the senses.
what an amazing analogy of Ms Minimalism. she explored so deeply into this path that she feels like she has reached the end of the branch, and now feels like she needs to go back to the trunk to branch out again. maybe she could see the path as being infinite branchouts ~ always continuing onwards, exploring into new pieces. in whatever she chooses to create next, you just KNOW it's going to have an amazing feel for space and quiet in it.
wishing you blessings and the soft gentle reassurance of your own voice in the next few weeks.
blessings to you artiste woman,
leonie
hang in there.... you know of course you will miss it when you are done....
hope to perhaps see you when you resurface??
i love how you worded that...
empty the basket
and then start putting
things back in...
that makes so much sense.
:)
I love visiting your blog for a different perspective as well. I hear you on the intense school schedule and crazy personalities that come with it. I really enjoy experiencing art school through you, being myself immersed in academic blahs of a different type.
oh so true miz mati...i am in the unproductive state at the moment. i
have 2 paintings sitting on my table - screaming for attention.
but i have design jobs that need my attention at the moment, because my checkbook needs some
attention.
somedays it seems like such a vicious circle. and i am sure
spring fever has set in with your
situation. school is almost out
and this is the time where the prof
really push for production.
my daughter cheri' is a sophomore at indiana university - interior design. and she is at the same point. i just told her yesterday -
2 weeks. then she is off to chicago for an internship. but she
has been pummeled with projects and tests.
i liked what you told your fellow student. that is what we have to do everyday - when we are empty, we just slowing starting filling up our baskets again.
here's to a full mati basket!
happy friday!
k
i love the honesty of your posts. i finished this one and thought, "wait, i´m not the only one who feels insecure and overwhelmed and inspired and excitied all at the same time?!?!" thanks mati.
well sed my dear! coming up for air, i so need that and im nowherenear being steeped as deep as you are!! ;)
take gentle care! be outside! kiss hugh lots! ;)
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I totally understand the need for pulling inward. Sometimes it is the most creative act we can do!
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