Thursday, June 22, 2006

sf in the tropics

creative pool on the sidewalk!
thanks for your sincere comments... sometimes i write and i don't know who my audience is and i always love reading what you pick up from my words and peeking back at your blogs.

i went for a walk this morning and hiked up to bernal hill. sweat pouring down me. wearing shorts and i don't wear shorts, short pants, but not above the knee. but it is that HOT. i am loving that fullness of summer heat that is rare here. i'm not going to go into a tangent on global warming, but it is weird to be experiencing this tropical heat.

it is very grounding to exercise first thing outside by oneself. i always am inspired by shariand her walks and maps.

i struggle so much with routine. i actually had a revelation today that i do really think that i have adult ADHD. seriously. it explains so much of my scattered focus. i am developing tools to overcome it visually with creating my very own dream date book... i hope to share this with you. i bound my first draft on monday and am overjoyed with how much it helps me be present because i know my outboard brain is written down. still, my friend suggested that i might be ADHD and then i read about it and it resonates so fully. the upswing is the feeling of constant stimulus, but i'm tired of struggling with focus and the idea that others might not.... wow.

are your days like this? you go to do the laundry and on the way to getting the detergent you answer the phone and you forget and start washing the dishes and then halfway through remember you were s'posed to email someone and then start responding to all your emails and remember that there was a package you should have sent and you add that trip to the postoffice or a blog to check and then 20 more and then... your day is gone. no art made. flitting about not REALLy accomplishing anything. no clean clothes. half washed dishes. nada. i know it is about creating a structure, a routine of my day and week, a container... i am working on this, but still why can't i focus on ONE thing at a time.

walks are good and grounding and maybe walking in the morning will be my first step towards clearing my head. above are some brillant blues and creative approaches to summer heat.

xo,
m

14 comments:

Shari said...

oh thank you mati! i'm touched that you find my maps/walks inspirational. :) certain days i feel scattered too...walks do help. i think society is creating multi-taskers...cell phones, laptops,eating while working, etc. yet it actually means we spend less time truly focusing our attention on each thing. i know i've been thinking about this lately too. quality of the things i do vs. quantity of things i cross off my list. thinking of you my dear! xo shari

penelope said...

Yes! I know what you mean about being sidetracked and pulled in different directions by so many things. I struggle with that too. :) I do find that my walks are where I calm down and breathe though. It just feels like they are all that matters when I'm out there. Watching my dog smile the whole way is good for the soul too. :)

xo

amy said...

I hear you woman, on both this post and your previous one. I finally after far too long escaped town, and all those crazy distractions. I did a lot of walking, and sweating, and breathing and I do feel better. Much more centered, glad to hear it worked for you as well.

jerusha said...

wow. i totally know those kind of days - except i would have remembered the detergent but got distracted before i put the clothes in ;)

Abigail said...

I feel very much like you do...I constantly get distarcted by other things I have to do {and some that I want to} and find it hard to get through the neccesary......I too have had all sorts of good plans about going for a walk in the morning {as I am sure it would help clear your mind} however...something always gets in the way. Go figure?

oh, and right now...I should be working! ;P
enjoy the sun Mati xx

The Whole Self said...

oooooh mati, my days are soooooo like this, i can't even tell you. right now i'm supposed to be emptying the dishwasher and doing the laundry and catching up on important emails and giving baths and etc etc etc, but i got distracted by my creative muses! oops.

kelly said...

oh dear mati...i know that if i went to a specialist they would medicate me - i am SO a.d.d! bryce
also is rolling his eyes with my
attention span!

i have had 2 great walks this week!
you sould see my desk! my house is tidy...but my studio A MESS!

Tracy said...

your 2 recent posts really resonated here... hope you have a lovely slow weekend... and take lots of walks! stay cool...

victoria said...

I can so relate! A therapist once told me that you need to carve time for yourself in the day--an hour or two or three and NOT multitask during that (ie: do laundry, vacuum, dust...). At the end of the day, those chores will still be there and if you can't get to them they'll be there tomorrow. (Even if you do the chores there will be more tomorrow!) Dedicating time to yourself is as important to your mental state as all those chores! I take her advice and when I do I find I'm calmer and more focused and all the other junk still gets done...

Elaine said...

Hi Mati,
Just stumbled upon your blog - it's great, all your photos are so vibrant and funky - SF seems so exotic compared to where i live in Scotland. Also, you struck a chord with the discription of your chaotic days, glad to know its not just me - some days I just feel like i'm drowning in domestity!!

Server Girl said...

love that pic...I am in sacramento and this heat is crazy hot especially with no A/C in my house :(...i think all of us are scattered sometimes..take it easy! :)

la vie en rose said...

i've been loving my morning walks (4 weeks straight now). they seem to give me energy and help clear my mind.

xo

Julie said...

Walks are excellent!! Especially with some good music too. Everyone needs that time alone..space..to refocus on the important things..

Kim Carney said...

I have that day every day ... sometimes I think I am losing my mind