Monday, August 31, 2009

monday musings: mondo beyondo

morning cafe
(see bigger here~ the view from my hotel in cortona, italy)

mondo beyondo has been rocking my world!

i identify as a dreamer. i think in particular as a child i was always dreamy. a head in the clouds kind of girl. now i've seen how this ability to day dream has paid off in my creative pursuits. it's become part of my process as an artist to be able to let my mind wander while i'm washing the dishes, folding the laundry and especially while i'm painting and dreaming up new paintings. it also has probably been a good coping mechanism when times are hard.

to quote Eleanor Roosevelt~
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

i really believe in this. it takes dreamers to build a better future. to believe in magic combined with hard work and focused intention pays off. a little stubbornness in the conviction of your dreams helps too!

i've been looking back at some of my older dreams and how so many of them have come true. i really believe in the power of writing these dreams down and how that catapults you further. especially when you share them with others. my list from my 32nd year while in some cases humble (running sneakers) has mostly come true and then some. i could have never dreamed that by putting "go to italy" on my list that i would not only go there~ but go for over a month, to teach painting!!! and for our honeymoon! it was quite literally a dream come true on so many levels.

looking back to when i first started this blog i wrote a list after my 29th birthday. i love how i also included dreams that i had already accomplished and acknowledged myself for those. that really is key. to celebrate in the process! relish the dream making and then enjoy them as they pan out. rather than just moving on to the next check box!

i have to include that in dream making it is not always about the glorious dreams either, but about the broken bits as well and figuring out ways to heal those and move forward. this is almost more dream like for me to imagine say~ conquering my recent fear of flying over winning the lottery. did i really say that? yes. i think the more i move into getting to know myself better these dreams of healing wounds, anxieties and ego are really the biggest leaps. basically to quote someone in my course who commented after reading my dream list that i'm dreaming~ to be happy, healthy and whole.

that said, i do still have some fancy feeling dreams to share (i've omitted a few too) during my 33rd (the magic number year!):

* publish a children's book with an excellent publisher
* publish a creative book that will unfold naturally as i write
* get a passionate, helpful agent
* be an awesome mentor and inspire my interns to make their own way creatively
* expand to textile design and be wildly successful
* live fully and integrated
* relish my time creating and living expansively
* drive in SF confidently, safely and with pleasure
* buy a home in SF in sunny spot with a claw foot bath tub, hardwood floors, a long table for friends, exposed beams and magic spaces and secret gardens filled with art and love
* buy a home in Maine near my family
* be bi-coastal
* make a healthy baby and feel completely excited, at ease and confident and radiant in being pregnant and as a parent
* have a solo show with big lush colorful paintings
* conquer recent fear of flying
* try acupuncture
* continue running and do another empowering race
* feel beautiful on a daily basis
* eat delicious healthy food
* go to the ocean weekly
* continue to grow strong and deeply in love with my husband hugh
* allow space for hugh to follow his creative dreams
* throw more dinner parties that feel full, alive and lovely
* be a bigger part of my nieces and nephews lives
* have a romantic visit to paris with hugh
* surround myself with people whom i love and are emotionally supportive
* embrace my full life

we all have this capacity to dream. dream big wild dreams, but the harder part is believing that we deserve these dreams and then figuring out how to access them. i'm in my 2nd week of my mondo beyondo dreaming course and i feel held and supported by a community of almost 200 other dreamers. it's quite dreamy, actually. if you feel at all inspired to take andrea and jen's next course i highly encourage you to sign up!

happy dreaming,
mati rose

11 comments:

Sarah Craig said...

Hi there! I've been reading your blog for a while (and I LOVE it), but this is the first time I've commented. I found you through Kelly Rae, who I found through Brene, who is friends w/my sister-in-law. Just wanted to say hi and keep up the good work! I read Kelly Rae's list yesterday, and now that I've read yours, I'm off to write my own. My 30th b-day is Saturday, so it feels like perfect timing. :)

Unknown said...

go mati! that really is inspiring and I've been thinking about some of my dreams that i have written down and how they have manifested themselves in ways that I couldn't have foretold. it really is cool.

surfy birdy said...

as a fellow dreamer i loved this post to pieces. thank you for these words. they mean a lot to me. you are inspiring and i am so happy for your dreams coming true. i also dream of one day being in italy. that is a lovely view! my distant relatives are from sicily. it seems beautiful. have a lovely time! peace & love.

kt said...

thanks for this post!!! i'm now inspired to sit and contemplate a list of my own...
good luck with the driving in sf item;) i always make my husband drive when we go there...

Andi said...

I can't tell you how inspiring this is. I'm going to work on my list tomorrow!!! Congrats on always dreaming in a world that doesn't always support dreamers.

By the way, I'm a Licenced Acupuncturist, so if you have any questions regarding acupuncture please feel free to ask me. :)

rachel said...

what an inspiring post! i identify with what you are writing, as i have always been a dreamer myself. i think i will have to write these dreams down - take them out of my head and put them on paper, to make them that much realer. thank you!

ale said...

mati rose!!with all these words you help other people to think in their own dreams... this post is full of hope and joy !!l´m very happy of your dreams,because you fell happy and you extend that to everyone in this case with your greattt blog!!!!un beso enormeee
(means an enormous kiss!)

sophia said...

8th on the list...that's a good one!(;

Geek+Nerd said...

Sigh. Awesome post. My birthday passed recently, and I've been meaning to do a list, inspired by yours for a few weeks now. I've been super busy moving into my killer new apartment though (move to Boston, dream officially in progress, yay!) and getting ready to start my new fancy job with Boston Ballet (life long dream, I can't even believe it!). I totally believe in dreams (obviously) and you're right, that bit of stubbornness helps quite a bit. Good luck in your 33rd year Mati! I hope they all come true for you :)

Jennifer said...

dreaming is such a magical thing. We need more dreamers in the world. To believe in the impossible and put it out there. It is incredible the things we can accomplish this way. Jen and Andreas class is truly amazing. It is so nice to dream along side so many beauties and not feel so alone in this enormous world. I second you in recommending the class. Keep dreaming ! ! !

violette said...

Hi Mati,

There are amazingly wonderful dreams. I agree with you - writing down your dreams does help make them manifest in the world. It's so great to see your dreams coming true.

My dream of having my own book, art in magazines and a wonderful supportive partner all came true. I credit much of that to writing my dreams/wishes down and also creating dreamboards around them!

Thanks!
Love, Violette
p.s. everyone used to say i was such a dreamer (in a derogatory way)....the world needs more dreamers!