Thursday, September 08, 2005

acclimating

matiburn
A belated self-portrait. I want to remember feeling strong and letting go. let go. peel away the layers. accept. be alive. these were my mantras on the desert.

This was taken while I was standing on a chair, after holding up a solar shower for Hugh. This may or may not look like me. I've been told I'm full of contradictions. Strong and feminine and shy and outgoing and cautious and spontaneous and sensitive and oblivious all mixed up. In the next photo I have a goofy grin. Inside the Fun House at the base of the man were "true mirrors" where they reflected how others see you. At first it was subtle, and then like seeing yourself for the first time. Funny what reversing your image can do to your perception of self.

my mom once sent me a postcard that i have stuck in my journal with a great quote from a preface of an unnamed book she was reading:

"The problem of self identity is not just a problem for the young. It is a problem all the time. Perhaps the problem. It should haunt old age and when it no longer does it should feel that you are dead".

What do you think of that?

14 comments:

la vie en rose said...

Love your self portrait...and your contradictions. I love living in the contradictions. I've been accused of being mysterious because of mine. Some people haven't been able to define/explain me. Secretly I must admit I love that because I think it makes me me. I'll have to ponder that quote.

shash said...

hey, welcome back! what a beautiful pic and post. i like the quote at the end too. hope you had a good time. sounds like it. see you around the corner. :-)

margarida said...

This picture is strong, very strong! I love that kind of blue and green!

Jesse said...

Welcome back!! What a great picture...if you ever have an album, THAT'S the cover. I love the colors, you look very strong. Ready for everything!

Cin said...

hi Mati, I was visiting your city last week and thought of you many times, in the bus, subway, restaurant or shop sometimes I'd wonder maybe that's Mati Rose sitting right there! But looks like I was there but you were away, hope you had a good time at Burning Man!

Camilla Engman said...

Strong and a little angry :-)
Love the colors.

Jeanine Huebner said...

dear Mati,
thinking of you... I love the picture, although, to me, it shows a not so familiar side of you. Identity.... maybe you really can't find out about your identity, except that your identity isn't always too identical with your identity... right?
Lots of love,
Jeanine

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