yes, exactly one year ago i started this here little blog with a little ditty about the bear corduroy! tania,stef and sabrina were the first to "comment" before i even knew how that worked! thank you. i had no idea how much it would mean to me. i have felt supported, empowered and kept accountable and inspired by this communication device known as le blog.
truth be told, i'm feeling a bit crizappy today. i worked at the restaurant until midnight last night and biked my sore bones home and it honestly felt a bit toxic in dynamics, and i know i need to find a new more fulfilling less drama job. i wish i could just be an illustrator and artist full-time and that is the bigger picture goal that i just need to keep taking the steps towards. it is rainy. i am pineing for some female companionship in a warm cafe over tea. i have a to-do list to face, mostly self-imposed... gosh, i really do put an insurmountable pressure on myself. sometimes so much so, that nothing can really be enough. i need to adopt some new mantras for myself.
1) be nice to yourself; treat yourself like you would treat a friend
2) just do it-- co-opt nike...sometimes i'm so bok bok chicken about applying for things i really want
3) harness jealousy of others successes into my own role models and a place for curiousity at how they got there... this idea came to me when reading stef's poetic post... why am i jealous, it means that i want *this* and *that* and that translates into a dream.
4) follow through
5) small bites and timelines and reward self appropriately for hard work done!
i think i should re-visit some of the wonderful creative resource books i scoured over when i first started this path. you all know the ones, but i think i will add to my website a creative resource list.
off to the studio my little chickadees. thank you for sharing in my path. xoxo
10 comments:
Happy blog birthday! I am so glad I have had the opportunity to know you and your art!
Happy blog birthday Mati, you are so generous and open with all that you share, it is a joy to visit here and follow along on your journey, many thanks
happy birthday to the blog and its
talented creator...
:)
glad that i found you
nicely put mz chickadee....i really can relate to your list
and i needed those words today.
so thanks!...a whole lot.
Happy blog birthday, Mati! I like that list, especially the part about acknowledging small, every-day successes/accomplishments. We all need that encouragement, but really it start from within. Take care, bud, and flourish.
whew, mati. i needed this post more than ever this morning! last night, both my boy went to bed incredibly early and i my mind went blank...i felt crazappy crazappy and female companionship in cafe would have been perfect!
so thanks for this one!!
Happy blog birthday - it is a pleasure to share the path with you! I am looking forward to reading about your creative resources.
oh happy blogiversary!!!!!
:)
i wish i could come have tea with you!
and i am SO the same on all 5 points- ugh its hard!
hang in there-
xo
Happy Blog Birthday! I would love to see your creative resource list!!
I know it is late, but Happy Birthday!!
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