Thursday, January 13, 2005

balance~ illo friday


i painted this almost a year ago after living in mexico for 3 months. hugh and i came back broke and squished into a tiny studio with all of our belongings within a square inch of us. and we are people who like things. baubles, art, dumpster diving treasures and our many newly aquired oaxacan skeletons were closing in us. not to mention the big computer which hugh was using daily to do design work on. i tried to find space, literally, to paint. i had a hard time re-adjusting. i still can't use that "kiss my face" lotion i used during that time because the smell floods me with claustrophobic memories.

i think about how far i've come in some regards, and regressed in others, but all along i've strived for balance. i've dug deeper for the truth of what makes me feel fulfilled. ME mati, not comparing myself to those whom i'm easily swayed by.

i start school next week in illustration! i've been working towards this goal for over 2 years- saving money, building my portfolio, taking classes and really digging as to what path i want to pursue. can it really be happening? it's always been far off in the future... now i have one more weekend to whoop it up pre-student!

this weekend also coincides with confronting my employers. i've had a difficult time at my part-time job and i really want to be honest and direct {and not cry} and leave with some self respect. i want to stand in my strength and believe that i'm worthy of creating my dreams. we all are, it just takes some digging and striking that balance that's right for each of us!


Anonymous said...

I absolutely love this! Fantastic!!

Anonymous said...

Great painting! I'm really feeling those energetic, vibrant colors.


Vanessa said...

I love all the beautiful colors you used!

Good luck with school!

Cindy Ann Ganaden said...

Nice to see you post on IlloFriday. Love the illustration. Very Nice!!! We will have to get together soon and do coffie or something :)

tania said...

great entry!

and super good luck starting the next leg of your DREAM!
and with talking to your employers. it's cute you said "and not cry".
that's exactly how i would feel.
sorry if my squirrels scared you.
hee hee.

Giao said...

That is one great illustration! I love the colors and the movement in it!

Best of luck on talking to your employers and moving onto your next exciting adventure!!

Gnome G

Joe said...

All I can say is waw! I love it! Good look with school!

♥ joleen ♥ said...

I ♥ this! Great use of color! :)